THE HOLY EMPIRE OF LOVE: 3. SISI AND JOZSIKA

I LIAB DI

I liab Di so sehr,
und i brauch Di nun auch
auf Erden, weil
mein Herz is sonst so
unendlich schwer.

Nua mit Deina Liab bin
i oa bluehenda Rosentriab
und kann in Deinem Licht
fuehrn hier auf Erdn
zu Dia der Engel himmlisches Heer.

I brauch Di nun umsomehr,
wie soll i sonst Worte finden, die
nicht wieder irgendwo im Sand
verschwinden?! Denn nur wenn
Du a wiederkimmst, koennen wir
beweisen und vorleben, dass es
Hoerende gibt unter Tauben,
und Sehende unter Blinden,
und dann koennen wir endlich
alle herzzerreissenden Wunden
mit unserer beider Liab als Mutter
und Vater, oder als schwesterliche
oder bruederlicher Berater fuer
immer heilen und verbinden.



Sisi to Jozsika:

I brauch Di

I brauch di
i liab di
wia der Deckel den Topf
und der Papagei seinen
singenden Kropf,
und wie der Adam soa Ripp'
und so bet i zum Herrgott,
dass unser Sohn geborn
wird wie i und hineingelegt wird
in eine Weihnachtsmettenkripp.

11th November 2008













SISI TO JOZSIKA:

WITH LOVE FROM IRELAND


Jozsika, oh, Jozsika, today I am writing
from my heart to you in English - it is
good for you to practice it a bit, too,
and most of your mother's secret under-
paid traitors without much notable phantasy
and language skills won't understand my
Denglish anyway and my sweet violet frills
and think that I am now totally over the
top and a hallucinator and they would not
even be able, even if they wanted to, my
trust to betray.


It is so lovely that we can finally send each
other so much more freely our prayers and
thoughts in all those imaginative images
that are as pure as my favourite birds -
as colourful as my parrots and as tender
as my lovebirds and they are ever so tame
and so dovely, even if sometimes you tease
me so much that on my first impulse I respond
as crunchy as our cook's dinner carrots
because I keep them in large numbers
'in my own herds'.

You know like no other that birds are such
sweet creatures, and they have so many useful
features that are thankfully hidden to the eyes
of your brother and your mother!
I have only recently started to learn from
the birds so much more closely - what a clever
communication system they employ that can
a lot of their enemies quite annoy.

They do have their habits, too.
But then they have to be so flexible in nature
that they easily can pretend, if they are smart
and clever, that all is as normal as ever - but
what the enemies don't know is that the birds
have the gift, like us two, to speak to each
other through the unseen realms - without
due preparation that is only a God given gift
that even the most imaginative artist, never
mind your mother's mindless spy, overwhelms.

We let them live kindly in the illusion that
we do not notice their outrageous intrusion
into our true and beautiful marital love that
was blessed by El Shaddai for eternity in
heaven above. But I find their means so
transparent and annoying, and it must even
be for them eventually quite boring and
totally soul destroying.

Imagine that - recently a woman pretended
to be your 'niece'. Anyone could see that
she was obviously sent to me to play with me
her little game - does your mother really
think that this will help the world to find
real peace, and what does this girl hope for,
some quick fame?



No wonder, she handed over her power
to you. She has not even got the first clue
about whom to trust and whom for an
intricate task to choose. In her sad jealous
games she employs the means of a canon
that has gone bunkers and loose and
mindlessly even the most delicate and
fragile relationship between people
and nations destroys.

I truly loved her as my auntie all
my life but since I became your beloved
wife she turned into my worst nightmare
and did not once for our love care.

All she ever sees is that she had forfeited
her power for you but the truth is that
your father was rather unable to deal
with the reality of the emperor's rule
and decided very wisely that he would
have an easier life by letting her do the
hard work and he stuck to the job of
playing the family's old fool.

I was then far too young to see her
agenda, and was simply overwhelmed
by her brutal actions that quickly had
become our marriage's reality, and I
failed her, too, by not looking deeply
enough into her soul to find a role
also for her that could have helped
her to fulfil the holy purpose of her
own soul.

You were too busy with all the conflicts
on all borders and I was not yet mature
enough to seek the wisdom and love
and understanding in setting up and
focusing my gifts in a far more healing
way in some kind of holy orders -

the life at court suffocates the free
spirit and to the maximum tightens
the grip on the heart and any kind of
free decision it restricts and I felt like
I needed to swing in order to be heard
sometimes in the palace my horse's whip.

Which, of course, I did not do but I
found my own way of escaping from
the many houses built of sand, which
I could already see in my dreams sealed
away with the devil's clay, and so, this
time I chose to go to Ireland.

I love Kilkenny! Here we could be free
and live our dream that tastes and smells
like the sweetest cream and honey and
our life hardly costs - your mother will
be pleased to hear - hardly a penny!
I spend my days riding and writing and
talking about thee, as only you know,
how much I miss you, and I thank God
that he gave us our secret way to talk
that is only between you and me.

I just so wish we could be as happy
together, when I am back in Vienna
but even though we are there seeing
each other there face to face it feels
like you are my neighbour and we are
always obliged to serve the country
first and the people and with a glad
heart we do so but it is at the cost
of our own family, when we are
working tirelessly and despite your
mother telling me otherwise, we do
ceaselessly labour, labour, labour!

That reminds me - you know, how I
love to learn. I should really brush
up my Greek, my Gaelic and all sorts
of accents because there are so
many questions I have and so many
answers that I seek!

I just read about the great synod
in Whitby. Just by browsing through
my little book that I received here
by a friend as a gift, I instantly thought
what a marvellous early Celtic Christian
community it must have been, and able
to heal with the characters of St Chad,
St Cuthbert and St Colman many a rift.

We could learn so much from them!
I feel that Rome, I am sorry to say
- and I know that probably it will as
always stay just between you and me -
has committed a grave mistake to
impose rules that had not even been
sanctioned by Our Lord Himself
and it sounds to me rather that
they have gone from His principle
of love and peace rather astray!!!

Now, if that gets into the hands
of your mother, it will spread quickly
to the wrong circles in the church,
where the devil is always waiting
gratefully for a little extra from
the lurch to betray evermore Our
beloved Lord and His closest brother!

It is really all quite sickening, and it
does not help my stomach either,
as you were already concerned that
eating is not really my strong point
but I am neither anymore willing to
give into your mother's bickering.

How could they have abandoned
and given up such a well established
rich and living church that radiated
the true peace of Jesus, and, if you
ask me - and sometimes you do -
I know in my heart that he was married
to Mary Magdala, I am convinced that
she was even his assistant and
deaconess and certainly his
rightfully wed missus.

A woman can feel that - and I have
also learnt a thing or two about
diplomacy and politics, so from where
I am standing I can see that our beloved
church in Rome must have some holy
truth conveniently tucked away under
its holy dome.

It is important for us to know, as I do
love our Pope and I always want to think
that I can in our God's houses with a pure
heart and with all my love and faith and
hope confidently to my beloved Lord
without a guilty conscience bow -

especially as we are meant to defend the
Holy Roman Empire that has been entrusted
to us - I want to make sure that I am not used
here to defend untruth or keep secret,
what is meant to be a cornerstone to Christ's
true spiritual church.

Because if we are deceiving the nations and
are even leading against them war, what does
that make us two, my beloved Jozsika? You
know that war was never my solution for
anything - that I think it is totally against
Christ's principles of peace and love, and
that it only means unrighteous intrusion for
the sake of greed and even a tainted, if not,
I dare to speak it out to you, possibly a
flawed or false creed, and that does certainly
never ever deserve to be sealed by an angel dove.

Words of love and understanding are the true
weapons of St Michael that we must use as
our holy sword. All violence and evil solutions
reap only the devil's unholy reward.
I am quite frankly very disillusioned with how
most of the so-called rulers ruin God's creation
and often quite purposefully, or, I don't know
what is even worse, some also do so rather
unintentionally.

Oh, Jozsika, I feel this lifetime of mine here
on earth is not enough - the world is a place
now far too rough to push through all peaceful
solutions. It takes a long breath, a lot of totally
faithful commitments and the controlled damage
limitation of betrayal, which we learn now all
the time, and most of them to us have neither
reason nor rhyme. And we also have to overcome
our vice of denial and need to speak out and
act speedily, when we identify a deadly concoction
of untruth, even if it is locked away in a bottle
as small as a vial.

Oh, Jozsika, pray with me, that God gives us
another chance sometime in eternity to come
back to this earth, to a next time, please, please,
just simple and cosy little kitchen hearth.
I want to spend some time cooking and making
Kaiserschmarrn for thee, and baking cakes
for our children and for you and me.
Quite ordinary dreams, really - but then, when
we have had our share of finally finding some
late happiness and starting, where we ended,
then we shall use what we know now, and make
sure that the devil in the lurch is the one, who
for good will be banned from doing evil in the
church.

It might take a while as doing good is always
in comparison quite slow, but then at last,
we can in humility and with a smile before
our One Lord and the Holy Trinity in
celebration of the One holy Empire Nation
bow - the one that Jesus always dreamt
about. Then we will also finally the holy truth
from the roofs shout: Mary Magdala was
always his eternal missus and the priests
of Melchizedek will be so pleased that they
will have the help of loving holy wives and
mothers, who are also in some cases precious
deaconesses.

The early Celtic Catholic Church was not
the one, who invited the devil to take his
seat in the pew's, or even worse, at the
altar's lurch. Columba was a very holy man,
so I learnt here recently, and he had his
ways to pass on the truth to some faithful
knights, who have also been copied as all
others, who call themselves Our Lord's
and Lady's sisters and brothers - ha!

I have learnt to discern the right ones from
the wrong - it is easy really, but the spies
will never know, as they do not belong to
the ones, who are in character and true
nobility strong. The true knights will never
advertise all their good deeds and would
rather accept demise than betray the truth,
which is always quite simple - as we know,
and never on lies feeds.

Oh, my Jozsika, I love you so much, and
I so miss your kisses and I so dream of
your touch. Until we meet again, may
the road rise to meet you, and let my
love in your heart and soul together
with God nourish and feed you. I might
appear to some as a distant wife but
you know you were always and are as
ever as is God my whole life.

I love you so, and every day my love
for you does infinitely grow. I miss
you and now from Kilkenny, with all
my tender love I kiss you, until we
meet again. I cry my tears into my
pillow, and I sing to you John Dowland's
'Oh, willow, willow, willow'.

I drink to you a glass of purest Jameson,
and toast that we may always rather serve
the meek and innocent than to sell out
God's creation and I would like to seal
my prayer with a vow of a multi-layer:
'When I come back in all anonymity, I
will serve only God, no man, nevermore!
And if you still want my soul to fulfill
together also with you my holy role
in holy matrimony, then, I know, the
journey of my soul will be completed
and evil for good and for eternity defeated,
as I can with a pure and glad heart before
my beloved Jesus and before God bow.
AMEN'

Sisi Seagull, Empress of God's grace
God is my Light to sing
8th June 2008


Sisi to Jozsika: With Love from Ireland II

Oh, Jozsika, my love of my life, I miss you
so much, and I pray that we will eventually
get the chance to serve God also more
efficiently and more evidently as the
sacrament of holy matrimony grants and
demands us as husband and wife.

I am learning quite a lot of new facts
here about the great dispute of Iona
against Rome, and to me it is clear
now that both sides had to learn with
each other to behave and act truly as
Christ's successor and brother.

From what I hear there was always,
always a great fear of loss of possessions
and of power that most were in favour
of solving still not as a plower for peace
and love. Despite Christ's teachings in
this matter, which were the living word
from heaven above regarding the latter -

even after all this time they mostly
used the sword's blade to silence
their own, not God's!, enemies and
just like the pagans believed more
in the path of blood and dying in the
war's poppy fields' mud than against
the odds with words and deeds of
holy truth with love and understanding
the devil's evil defying.

Oh, Jozsika, it seems like Jesus has
to come back to bring them all back
on His holy track: Only He is able to
sort them all out because they are
simply not listening enough, when
they think that shedding of blood
is a measure so rough that it might
count as a sacrifice - have they not
understood that the representatives
of Christ, no matter, whether sent
by Iona or Rome, can and must
never ever seal with another's
life God's holy dome.

Jesus' sacrifice still has not silenced
those, who with a false sense of wrong
and right think they even have to fight
their way into the secret garden of His
holy rose. (I had this dream last night,
in which I saw that Jesus called His
beloved wife Mary Magdala just like
you call me - 'mein Roeschen'. And
He told me that He will now speak
and shoot His fiery dart with His
holy truth through His betrothed
spouse, see, she really is His missus!).

Oh, Jozsika, why do they still all go
astray? Even we are still confronted
to make a choice to either conquer
a nation or to surrender it in love to God,
which would please Him so much
more, as He had enough of those
fallen war gods like Mars, Odin and
Thor, and who wants us to be leading
all the twelve tribes of Israel into
His one holy empire, His one holy
nation.

Not just for Austria - no, Jesus
said to me that this was also His
vision and He shared it now with me:
God had promised it as His wedding
gift to give Mary Magdala the chance
to one day heal with the love overflowing
and with the gentle and graceful weapons
of many a womanly and creative art all
that only selfish man presents as an
illusionary rift.

Isn't it romantic and wise at the same
time that God is determined to give
women the chance through Mary
Magdala, who is preparing to be
a witness to the heavenly court
(in this vision you could compare
her on earth almost to the old Irish
status of a daleigh, who persues the
holy truth and makes sense of it and
even in rhyme, and I also heard
that God said His Names to seal
His gift with the authority of El Shaddai,
Jeja, Jehovah!) -

to prove that only Christ's
way of purity, clarity, accountability
and humanity with the utmost love
is the only true way henceforth from
heaven above that leads us back
to the Infinite Light and that love really
is the strongest power of all, and does
not require any magic at all and is
therefore is an all powerful and
everlasting might that prevents
all angels through sinlessness
from temptation and a big fall.

If needs be I would also be willing
to make my plea at another synod
in Rome, Iona, or here in Kilkenny -
anything to help in resolving any
unfinished matter for Christ's
spiritual church, and then we can
finally drive out with the complete
holy truth the devil from his
lurch and break down with just a
gentle breeze of love and ever
deeper understanding the crumbling
walls of arrogance, deadly silence,
indifference, negligence, disturbance,
interference, and wrongful adherence.

All ways of the blood path goes only
ever back to anxiety and wrath. If we
simply followed the ten commandments,
especially the one our Lord and King
Jesus gave us - to love one another!
If in all honesty and with a pure heart
applied, then who would ever dream
of ever going to war against each other,
especially, when we call in Christ
a woman or man our sister or brother
or father or mother?!

All clergy, bishops, cardinals,
rulers and queens and kings, this
is the sound of the last call to the
sinners and I hope that in thine ears
it peacefully and in all its radiance
of Christ's love rings. If not, prepare
for thy soul's to hear the bell for the
last time toll.

Because God has now no more
patience for those, who purposefully
and deliberately from manifesting His
heavenly kingdom on earth in the
One holy nation break away with
their allegiance from Jesus and His
Holy Rose. His beloved Son
is sitting on the judgment throne,
and ready is God's army of
most faithful drones, who refill the
heavenly paradise on earth soon with
the sweetest milk and honey in holy
matrimony and in celibacy from
wherever our Lord is invited to
dwell in peace and love and harmony
and it starts in as little a space as
their own kitchen hearth.'


Oh, Jozsika, oh, edessem, as they
say even in Kilkenny - 'Next year
in Jerusalem!' You know, I love
refreshing my Hebrew, Latin and Greek
and now I will also try seriously to learn
Gaelic, although it will probably with a
little streak of Magyar but that is alright
as they have here even the same kind
of myths that go back before the time
of King Istvan, and even further down
the line to all the ancient people of the
book, and I would not be surprised at
all, if one day we found out that all
languages and many a secret story
have been travelling back and forth
with the ancient ships and newer ones
of the Captains Phipps, Cook, Kidd,
and many a Hook.

So, what I learnt so far from all this
reading and feeding with the early
Celtic Christianity - they were actually
quite close to the heart of Jesus and
of His Holy Rose, from what I perceive -
they had communities of holy brothers
and sisters, who also raised in holy
matrimony alongside serving God and
their community their holy children
in monasteries and simple houses,
and it was their choice, whether to live
as an hermit, ascetic monk or nun or
together as priests or bishops with
their spouses (one for each!).

They were learned teachers, artists,
writers, doctors, cleaners, plowers,
cooks, nurses, midwives, servants
of God and there was no need to
restrict and suffocate their faith and
hope and love and make their
hearts ever harder and tighter.
We are all being given by God
special gifts that He only gives
and bestows upon us to enable
us to heal all illusionary rifts.

Oh, Jozsika, I feel like this is also
my way, and I so pray that one day
soon we will also be God's shining
Infinite Light's ray. I so much yearn
always for Christ's peaceful and
creative solutions and they are so
easy and simple that I often smile
and even laugh to myself, and then
I think of you, and so you will see
yet another new dimple, when we
will be reunited again.

I can now honestly say with a glad
heart that I finally feel so at home in
my trust in you - and so I promise to
leave the preparations for your return
unto me, for which we both so yearn,
(I only hope we will have the chance to
have at least the time for tea in
London for two, so that you and me
can with all the rest of our journey
better cope), oh, Jozsika, this
time in your hands as that is your
domain.

Like you said in your words on my
departure quite strong
- and I know now that I was, only
though due to your Master's role,
at that time about a few things left in
the dark and therefore thought wrong -!
Yes, I do admit gladly that you will
always be my Master, and every time
you lead my heart and soul into a new
emotional disaster it beats to your
delight for you evermore and ever
faster.

Oh, Jozsika, I so miss you, but fortunately,
you even found a way that I always know
and feel your love, and I will now send
tenderly my kiss also to you - watch out
for the rainbow and the dove from heaven
above.
Oh, Jozsika, I so miss your embrace, and
seeing with you the world through the
eyes of the most purehearted and loving
child, who can at times be also stubborn
and wild.

Oh, Jozsika, Jesus was right: the heavenly
kingdom on earth is only ever coming, if
we walk only on the path of love and understanding
that starts in our own house, and from our
own kitchen hearth and if we are lost we
just have to look up to heaven above.
Catch the rainbow and then plant the
seed for all that is of love, and that is
the one true Christ's creed.

To my beloved Holy Emperor of God's Grace
Sisi
God is my Light
8th June 2008


Sisi to Jozsika: With Love from Ireland III

Oh, Jozsika, oh, edessem, I so miss you,
and even if your mother's spies tell you
differently, we both know that it is also
of thee true. I wonder, whether you are
at least enjoying a bit of the sun's golden
and warm shine, and I pray that you are
not just always swimming in your duty
and are seeking for your tears comfort
like many do here, from the occasional glass
of Jameson or strong dark beer or wine.

I am spending my time with going to mass
like this morn, and there is always at
least one good thought that pierces
my heart like a holy thorn: Today it was
the reading about Elijah - it is the beauty
of blind faith, that God gives us all we
need, if we just believe in Him and in
His ability for us to care and our little
stomachs to feed.

The second thorn was the musical sounding
to my ears ofJesus' horn: 'Your light must
shine before others!' Yes, He was right -
we must radiate with our love for our
sisters and brothers, our fathers, and
friends and mothers and eliminate all
the untruth and their fears.

Oh, my beloved spouse, when are we
finally going to live together for good
in our holy Father's house? When will
they grant us the peace and recognition
for our love that El Shaddai, He Who Is,
Jeja, Jehovah granted for eternity also
to Jesus and Mary Magdala. I heard
and saw it so loud and clearly in Jesus'
vision that He shared with me, and He
also entrusted to me that He is very sad
about all the heretics, including that
awful story about the Hiram key.

His message is this: Love one another
and give each other a brotherly or
sisterly hug and kiss! Repent your
every smallest sin, then you shall feel
towards everybody like your closest
next of kin. He recommended also
strongly that everybody should try
to learn Greek, as to be able to read
the scriptures for themselves, so that
once and for all the truth they are able
to find, when they in the gospel the
missing parts of His holy words seek.

And, my beloved, I am proud to say that
I have started to do so, and I am able to
draw on the sources of my favourite
poet and priest John Donne, who loved
his wife just like you do me and Anne
adored him just like I do thee.

Did you know that he translated Aristotle
instead of John Dee?
And he always spoke out the truth about
the women, especially Mary Magdala and
he knew about Jesus wishes, upon which
he always contemplated and prayed, as do
you, on his knee.

When I browsing through my books I found
myself singing: 'Hagios, o Theos, holy is God!
Hagios ischyros, holy and strong!
Hagios athanatos, eleison, Holy Immortal One,
have mercy on us!'

Oh, Jozsika, I so love the Greek language
and I seem to remember it now, fragments,
little by little, although it has been a long
while that I spoke it also fluently like the
apostles but now my skills are almost non-
existant and quite brittle!

'Iesous Christos, s'apago!' I heard Mary
Magdala say to her spouse and Master.
And I love the sound of this! It makes my
heart melt, as I think of you, and I send
you now from Kilkenny to Vienna an ever
faster most tender kiss.

And I say for your numerous beautiful
heavenly gifts and all the flowers that you
keep surprising me with to say that you
love me, too, through my most trusted friend,
so pure and true, the angel Gabriel, my sweetest
whisper of thank you, my beloved spouse,
and 'efkharisto'!

I have seen a beautiful icon of the Magi
worshipping the baby Jesus - and then
I felt another thorn deep in my heart that
opened my soul to another vision that
this time was sent to me by Gabriel, and
the angel comforted Mary Magdala and
said to her:

'Do not doubt thy Lord, thy King!
Thee art joined by El Shaddai, Jeja,
Jehovah, He Who Is, in the Holy of Holies
forevermore with thy beloved betrothed
spouse, and He, who is the beloved Son
of God and is known as I AM will come
unto thee and wed thee one day also on
earth in all of God's ways to please all
of the twelve tribes of Israel, and to seal
His house's roof with the seal brought
by thy Lord Emmanuel, of which one
will be with a blessed simple golden
wedding ring.

And that is the day, when finally the
devil is being locked away for eternity
and all of the one holy nation will
rejoice and Allelujah! in one heavenly
accord on earth forevermore sing!

That is the time, when the Magi, who
have proven to be more faithful and
trusting than the apostles and have
always patiently and quietly served
God as His ever-loyal lightning rod
will present unto thee all their hidden
treasures and sacred gifts that are
beyond all earthly measures and which
will help thee to once and for all heal
all illusionary man-made rifts, so that
thou canst pave the way for thy
beloved Master and spouse's return,
for which all of heaven and earth'
faithful with thee so long and yearn.

We have been waiting for such a time
until thee willst be ready to see enough
reason and rhyme in all the suffering
that has been inflicted upon Him and
thee, and God has asked me to remind
thee of the blessing that He once came
down for to earth to bestow personally
upon thee!

Blessed art thou, Mary Magdala, heavenly
Queen, and holy Mother of All, we urge
thee to now accept thy earthly responsibility
at the side of thy beloved Master and spouse
Jesus, and serve with Him God in His true
spiritual church as His deaconess and missus
and if thee so wishes, it can be in almost
total anonymity.

Thee must shine now thine Infinite Light of God,
in His own purified house, before even the
last good angel will despair and fall, and with the
authority of He Who Is I promise thee now that
thee willst after all and finally be blessed with a
holy child, a brother to his holy sister, a late but
very happy heir.'

Oh, Jozsika, I am still in floods of tears myself,
whilst these holy words are still echoing in my
ears. You know that I would never dare to
blaspheme Abba, Our Heavenly Father, and so
this must be the truth, and now I am not surprised
that my love was always so strong for all things
Magyar that were leading to the kind of wisdom
and understanding that can only have originated
in heaven above.

See, how beautiful and truly awesome is our duty
as Emperor and Empress - but my heart so pains
as in our empire the air is still full of conflict and gun-
powder and with ammunition everywhere in the world
it rains. We will have to come back one day, and I
suppose, we need a lot of purifying and discernment
and absolute faith, hope and love and each other we
must trust, as the Gabriel was very outspoken and
so was Jesus to His beloved missus:

'God is merciful, and will forgive, but only evermore
now those, who repent even the tiniest sin, and
who do treat their neighbour as their next of kin.
The baptism of fire is not an easy way on the cheap,
and it will certainly only lead the souls to survive
on the most necessary ingredients for a holy life,
which art love for their themselves, their neighbours
and for their children and for their one wife, and it
will be the infinite love and light, from which any
reward they will reap.

No earthly riches or fame or the corrupt solutions
of druids and witches. No - the comfort and strength
and true happiness come with discipline, love and
understanding, and through helping each other in
the best way of humanity. If we can master that,
then mankind will be finally able to live in the
heavenly kingdom on earth in peace and love and
harmony.

Oh, Jozsika, I am so overwhelmed by these visions
that came over me on this trip -
all this Gaelic, Greek, Hebrew, Latin and Magyar
has quite a strong hold on my heart and on my
my soul a strong grip, and I am growing more and
more in my humility and now totally of my pride
and any selfishness I do myself strip.

As I write these words down in reverence and
with utmost sensitivity I realize that I do not know
the first thing about this kind of celestial dispute
of angels on earth, who, accordingly to Gabriel,
seem to have lost at least one heavenly .

But Gabriel had such a loving and perfect and
simple elocution that only the Holy Spirit can
bring down to earth this kind of elocution.
And does not church come from the word
'kyriake' - belonging to the Lord?! Oh, I forgot
you do not speak Greek, but I read also that
the Lord said, that the kingdom belongs to
the gentle and to the loving and to the meek.

'Katholikos' means universal, and 'Ekklesia'
stands for the people of God that have been
called to gather in Jesus' Name, and that is
why in Antioch the apostles have been called
for the first time Christians, and came to
some kind of fame.

But is it not sad that they forgot to put the
saddest wrong right - the loss of their baby
and Mary Magdala being Our Lord's rightful
missus - ? And even over the fact that she
served Him so faithfully as His assistant
as a deaconess they put on a mighty fight.

History is just repeating itself now, isn't it?
Your mother has also not done one helpful
thing for establishing peace and love in our
holy empire - as she is rather too busy with
all sorts than to stand firmly by the rightful
wife of her beloved Son, the imperial Sire,
who chose her and married her out of His
eternal love for her with a golden wedding
ring.

She always talks about my responsibilities
and leaves them also to me, but the empire
could have long been shining in all our
Infinite Light, if she would not constantly
distract the attention from thine perfect
capability to steer the nation into the one
and only holy empire of God with all our
combined skills and gifts and celestial
might.

She rather puts all her attention into
fighting me and thee with all others,
the sisters and brothers, who are in
our vicinity, and are copying our story
in all detail and try to rob it of its
purity, and is keeping herself
busy with pettiness as she was always
feeling betrayed of her true station, that
was denied to her by God as she had
betrayed her once betrothed of the purest
light.

She had been listening to God in a still moment
and picked up a few secrets that bestow
heavenly power,and had from then on known
about the magic properties of the purest flower,
God's holy rose. But that had only been dedicated
and entrusted to the one, who was humble and
obedient enough to receive it in its rightful
manner and dose, first as a rosebud and
eventually, after long purification, in her
bosom as God's true blossom.

She tried to pick the first root of Jesse,
but she was not prepared for the purity of
what it entails to be the Infinite Light's
Son's beloved lassie. Too much earthly
manifestation and gravity did interfere,
and so she was confused and only
the song of delusion and fairytales
with easy solution and satisfaction
did ring a bell in her ear.

Life was too hard and too difficult
to diffuse and all her earthly failings
pushed her evermore away from the
highest station's railings. You know,
what, my beloved Jozsika? It is really
quite scary, and the more I dwell on
this, I am guided that this is a process
that many rulers must know very well.

We all have phases in our lives, as
brothers, sisters, fathers, friends,
husbands, and wives, where we must
feel totally in charge of our fate -
that is, when God turns it round
and makes us understand that it is
really Him, who rules ultimately -

but in the human flesh we are so slow
to firmly in this belief on our two
feet to stand that it often is almost
for our salvation too late, and so
instead of purifying from our bitterness
and rejection we rather into the
darkness spread and grow and
a lot of evil to happen on the earth
allow.

Oh, Jozsika, I pray that before I
leave this earth, I want to be at peace
with everybody, even with your mother,
and our worst enemies and I want you
to be happy, too, in our little kitchen
hearth. Alright, it might not be that
small because as we both cook and
you are contrary to me quite tall,
we need a bit of space, and also
with our own anticipated addition
to the human race we need also some
room for the children to sit and to
feed and with our guests around the
table to say our one God's holy and
truthful creed.

Oh, Jozsika, oh, edessem, I never
thought that the Magi were related
to the Magyars, but then, God always
wanted all the faithful of the twelve
tribes of Israel to be united as His one
holy nation. So, let us try, what we can
to build Our Heavenly Father's house
now on earth and seal with our love
its roof. And then finally can end
all this nonsense of violence and
corruption and open secret world
service kindergarten games' spoof.

Sisi
God is my Light
10th June 2008