JUDAS KISS

JUDAS KISS

You see, my beloved Iesous
gave me under the eyes of Judas
many a marital kiss, which he did not like,
and that is, why he did also at us
continuously through his secret
allies hiss, and not only that,
but sometimes he would also
send out somebody to kill
me with a knife or with an axe
or through a pike.

Or in later years of the early church,
somebody would hitchhike a pike
from the river Ness and make
it in Jesus' Name into a monster,
as “It is a fearful thing to fall
into the hands of the living God”!

Yes, one should be fearful of the living God,
as He is the one, who holds the Infinite Light's rod!
When we stop submitting our souls and hearts
to God's authority and pretend we do not need
His sacrifice of His most sacred heart
or to remember Him and His crown of thorns,
and, as He had instructed, His holy Eucharist,
or His blessing even for a sacred sacrament
of holy matrimony or blessed celibacy -

then we can so easily fall from God's grace
and in that case the kiss into a beloved's face
becomes the traitor's permission for the enemy
of God and the holy family to kill and hiss,
and that is the end of any holy union's bliss.

In the case of the pike
it became so big in description with it spike
that it did not fit into a river
anymore and had to be bigger than
the from disease inflated dead floating pig,
so it had to be transferred in spirit
to Loch Ness, and that is how all the
hype and hypocrisy came also to Inverness.

We must never sit in our ivory tower
and throw at a soul stones, as
we cannot tell, when we are being used
by those, who are secretly as druids
or Egyptian fallen deities are wearing
their ridiculous cones, and are out
to extinguish the sacred eternal union
of Iesous and Mary Magdala,
His beloved Vered, His Holy Rose.

One can pretend, like Bede,
a scholar, who spoke Greek and Latin - just a bit?! -
but not Hebrew? to understand,
and I will still never really comprehend,
why some saints with a violent
record are endorsed and others,
who are gentle and mild and loving
sisters and mothers married to their brothers
are sent out, sometimes even as a bishop
on their naked feet
like St Chad back into the cold and into the wild.

Oh, well, there is a lot many souls have
to answer for on their own personal
judgment day; and quite frankly,
I pray that all of us do not on that
day are condemned of being formed anew
from the clay.

Because if I only journey deeply inside of me,
I find flaws and mistakes and perceive
even the slightest sin as towards my beloved
spouse Iesous a betrayal, and pray that
He still loves me and accepts kindly my
love, submission and obedience as He can only
be the ruler of God's house - as He is the man,
and as such He carries all the heavy
responsibility for His family for eternity,
and I am not asking Him to be in His judgment
towards me more than to others lenient.

I expect Him to treat me just like the rest,
as that is why I had to pass many a tearful test.
But I promise and vow to always try my very best
- 'same procedure as every year'... only evermore
refined and even better, says the servant to
her Master, without writing anymore any
(orchestrated and directed by Him) insulting
complaints letter.

I pray, and ask for forgiveness, and repent,
and I am not asking that God and Jesus may
in their punishment for me relent.
I am responsible for my own actions,
and for having wasted parts of my life
with manifold from my faith and from
God's service distractions.

I have failed God and Jesus in many a way,
and have darkened in phases my own Infinite light's ray.
But I promise that I will nevermore go astray,
and pray that all souls return home to God,
and do not ever fall from His grace but
are from now on desiring to serve as His
lightning rod Him and the human race
with dignity and in grace.

MIRIAM MIGDAL ELIORA ANAT
THE ETERNAL REPENTANT
A.D.20TH DECEMBER 2008