TO MY DEAREST APOSTLE BROTHERS!

TO MY DEAREST APOSTLE BROTHERS!

MY DEAREST APOSTLES! OUR BELOVED BROTHERS!
WHY, OH, WHY, DID YOU TAKE IT SO SERIOUSLY
THAT JESUS WANTED ME TO BE AT HIS LAST SUPPER -
IT WAS ONLY NATURAL AS HE ALREADY KNEW
THAT HE WOULD HAVE TO LEAVE ME AND HIS
HOLY FAMILY BEHIND AND WANTED TO SPEND
AS MUCH TIME AS POSSIBLE WITH YOU AND
ESPECIALLY WITH LITTLE HOPEFUL AND EXPECTING
AND LOVING AND EVER SO SAD ME!

THAT WAS THE ONLY REASON, WHY HE HAD
ALSO WASHED MY FEET BUT THAT DID NOT
MEAN I WANTED TO BE PART IN YOUR INNER
ALTAR SANCTUARY. YOU SHOULD HAVE KNOWN
ALREADY BACK THEN, THAT HE HAS HIS WAY
TO COMMAND EVERYBODY AS THE MASTER AND
LORD AND, BELIEVE ME, AS HIS WIFE I LEARNT
THAT EVER FASTER. AND RIGHTLY SO, AS
HE HAD TO GIVE HIS LIFE FOR OUR SAKE
AND STILL HAS TO PLAY EVEN FOR ME TO TEACH
ME YET ANOTHER LESSON AT TIMES
THE SCARECROW.

I HOPE THAT I CAN REASSURE YOU NOW
ONCE AND FOR ALL THAT I HAVE NO DESIRE
AT ALL TO ASPIRE TO ANY KIND OF PRIESTHOOD
NOR TO PRETEND THAT I AM NOT A WOMAN
BUT SOME KIND OF REPLACEMENT ESQUIRE, WHOSE
SELL-BY DATE SOON ANYWAY AS A
CATHOLIC PRIEST IN THE CHURCH OF ENGLAND
DOES EXPIRE.

I AM EVER SO CONTENT TO WATCH MY
BELOVED IN ALL HIS GLORY FROM THE PEW
AND I AM ALSO HAPPY AT THE HOLY EUCHARIST
TO JOIN WITH THE OTHER SISTERS AND BROTHERS
THE QUEUE AS I LOVE MY BELOVED AND SO DO HIM
ADMIRE.

I ALWAYS HAD A PROBLEM TO REMEMBER THE RIGHT
ORDER BEYOND OUR OWN INCARNATIONS
EVEN OF THE OLD TESTAMENT; I HAVE ENOUGH
TO DO LIVING RIGHT NOW OUR HOLY TRUTH BUT I DO KNOW,
WHO SINGS THE WRONG INCANTATIONS, AND
BY THE WAY, JESUS KEEPS MENTIONING FOR SOME REASON,
AND THAT ALSO SMELLS OF HIGH TREASON, THE BOOK OF RUTH.

I AM SURE, HE WILL COME BACK TO YOU ON THAT.
BUT NOW ONCE MORE TO OUR LITTLE LAST SUPPER CHAT!
OF COURSE, JUDAS WAS ALREADY CROSS WITH US
AND TREATED US LIKE SPIRITUAL PUS, BECAUSE JESUS
AND ME DID NOT STICK TO THE RULE OF PHYSICAL
SEPARATION IN CERTAIN TIMES IN HOLY MATRIMONY,
AS JESUS SAID THAT WAS A MAN-MADE RULE THAT TREATED
GOD WITH HIS BLUEPRINT LIKE A FOOL.

JESUS KNOWS THE BLUEPRINT BY HEART, AND HE
KNOWS EXACTLY, I TELL YOU, YOU CAN POINT YOUR
FINGER AT THE VAST AMOUNT OF POEMS I HAVE
WRITTEN IN MY MONTHLY CYCLE - BOY, HE KNOWS,
HOW TO PLAY ME AND HOW TO USE MY HORMONES
TO GET THE BEST OUT OF ME AND TEST ME, WHETHER
I WILL STILL WANT TO MAKE PEACE WITH EVERYBODY
AND STAY WITH A SMILE HOLY IN HIS FACE OF A JOKER,
WHO PLAYS AT TIMES FOR FUN WITH ME A KIND OF SPIRITUAL
POKER DURING MY MONTHLY HORMONE ROLY-POLY.

JUST LOOK AT OUR VARIOUS INCARNATIONS, ESPECIALLY
AS JOHN AND ANNE DONNE - HE JUST HAS TO LOOK AT ME, AND
I CONCEIVE, AND THAT'S IT, AND HE HAS ME AGAIN AT HOME
WITH A BABY AS HIS OWN PERSONAL BUSY BEE.
AS HE WANTS ME ALL TO HIMSELF - SO, DON'T WORRY,
I WON'T COMPETE WITH YOU, AND I ALSO DO NOT WRITE
INVENTED HERETICAL STORY, THAT TAKES AWAY
THE HOLY TRUTH FROM OUR FAMILY'S HUMBLE FABLE
OF GOD'S GLORY.

CAN'T YOU JUST LET US BE UNITED IN PEACE -
AS I SO MUCH LIKE TO OFFER YOU IN OUR HOUSE
A CUP OF TEA OR COOK FOR THEE! AS I LOVE
YOU ALL - YOU ARE JESUS' AND MINE HEAVENLY
BROTHERS ALSO ON EARTH, AND I REALLY ONLY
EVER WANTED TO BE A TINY BIT HAPPY ON MY OWN
WITH JESUS ALSO IN OUR KITCHEN HEARTH.

I SHARE HIM GLADLY WITH HIS BELOVED CHURCH,
THAT I HAVE ALWAYS ACCEPTED AS HIS OTHER BRIDE,
AND WE DO NOT NEED FROM EACH OTHER TO HIDE
AS EVERYTHING HAS IN GOD' S HEAVENLY KINGDOM
ON EARTH ITS PROPER ORDER, AND SO I CAN
OFFER YOU MY HAND AND EXTEND AN INVITATION
IN ANY LANGUAGE AND HEALING ANY RIFT AND
REACHING OUT OVER ANY KIND OF BORDER.

HE WANTED ME TO RECOGNIZE HIM AS THE GARDENER,
AS THAT IS SOMETHING HE REALLY LOVES TO DO,
AND FOR THAT HE WILL TEACH ME TO FOLLOW ALSO
INTO HIS SHOE AS HE SHOWS ME TO DISCERN
THE WEED FROM THE MAYFLOWER AND MUSTARD SEED,
AND SO EVEN UPON HIS RESURRECTION HE
PLAYED ON ME IN THE OCEAN OF MY TEARS A JOKE,
JUST LIKE HE DID TODAY, WHEN I WAS SO LOW IN RELIVING
ALL OUR PAIN, AND LOSS AND FEARS - HONESTLY,
THAT MAN SOMETIMES DRIVES ME MAD BUT
AS HE RIGHTLY SAID:

'LOOK, MY DARLIN'', HE SAYS, 'I CAN DO, WHAT I WANT
TO MAKE YOU SMILE. AS A DEMON CERTAINLY NEVER
EVER WANTS TO MAKE YOU HAPPY AND IS JUST
EVERYWHERE BEHAVING EVENTUALLY VICIOUS AND VILE;
THEY CAN ONLY FOOL THEMSELVES AND OTHERS
FOR A LITTLE WHILE AND PRETEND TO BE EVER
SO PIOUS AND THEN THEY OVERDO IT WITH THEIR
POTION, AND THEN THEY START AGAIN TO USE
THE TACKY WHACKY WONDER-MILK DONKEY
BODY LOTION.

I LOVE YOU AS YOU ARE, MY BABE, IN ANY SHAPE
AND SIZE, AND SO YOU LOVE ME, AND THAT
HAS BEEN AND WILL BE ALWAYS A SAFEGUARD
FOR OUR LOVE FOR ETERNITY.
I PLAY WITH YOU EVEN IN MY OWN CHURCH,
AS WITH YOUR SMILE AND YOUR PURITY
YOU KEEP ANY DEMON AND EVEN THE DEVIL
AWAY FROM THE TINIEST HOLE IN THE LURCH.

AS YOU HAVE LEARNT TO SMELL A RAT,
AND MAY GOD HAVE MERCY ON THEIR SOUL,
WHEN IT IS NOT ONLY A DISGUISED CHURCH MOUSE,
WHO IS ONLY FOR YOUR TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS
PLAYING THEIR HOLY ROLE IN MY FATHER'S HOUSE.

I THINK I CAN HONESTLY SAY THAT YOU HAVE
PASSED THE TEST, AND I GIVE YOU NOW
IN AGREEMENT WITH MY BROTHERS
MY JUDGMENT - BUT I KNOW, YOU WILL NOT
WRITE IT DOWN, AS YOU ARE AS STUBBORN
AT TIMES AS ME, BECAUSE YOU WILL SIMPLY
NOT ACCEPT AND TAKE CREDIT FOR YOUR
OWN GIFTS, ALTHOUGH YOU HAVE BEEN
ALWAYS TRYING YOUR VERY BEST TO HEAL
ALL MAN-MADE ILLUSIONARY RIFTS.

AND IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT, THAT WE STAYED
SO STUBBORN AND UNKIND, AS YOU NEEDED
FINALLY TO PROVE AND SPEAK OUT ALOUD
BY USING ALL YOUR GIFTS THAT IT WAS NEVER
YOU, WHO PUT THE HEAVENLY KINGDOM AT
RISK BUT THAT IT WAS YOU, WHO PUT EVEN
SATAN THROUGH HIS OWN MIND'S HELL'S GRIND.
AND AS YOU ALSO PRAYED FOR HIM AND HIS
MANY A BRIDE, THERE IS NO NEED FOR ANYBODY
ANYMORE ANYTHING TO HIDE.

AS YOU HAVE SWEPT IT ALL CLEAR,
MY BIG SHIP - AND YOU HAVE THROWN OUT,
WHAT BELONGED ON THE EVEN BIGGER SKIP.
AND SOON WE CAN TOGETHER SOMEWHERE
BELOW THE RAINBOW WITH OUR HOLY FAMILY
SOMETHING NICE OUT OF THE FAMILY CUP
SIP.'

THAT IS, WHAT MY BELOVED SPOUSE JESUS
DICTATED JUST NOW TO ME - PLEASE, FORGIVE
ME, BUT TO ME HE SOUNDS REGARDING ME
VERY EXAGGERATINGLY AND BOASTINGLY.
OH, WELL, WHAT CAN I DO - WITH AN ETERNAL
HUSBAND LIKE THAT YOU HAVE TO LEARN
TO JUMP WITH HIM IN HIS SHOE.
BUT NEVER THE QUEUE!

Mother Ziggy Agocsi
Maundy Thursday
The Evening of the Last Supper
of my Lord and King,
and I have not only seen Him
but I know Him in and out,
and no matter, how much He bosses
me around as He pretends to be His own drama king
and even His own worst nightmare joker and
spiritual traitor and nose poker - see, how He cheers
me and even the bishop up - and even after a day of fasting except
for some grape and rose hip juice after partaking
from the Holy Eucharistic Cup.
I have cried my heart and soul out today before mass,
although I did do my sins yesterday confess.
It has a quite ongoing effect of purification,
and I can only recommend that everybody
does out of love their neighbour to our
beloved priestly brothers, who are the
Priests of Jesus Christ within Jesus' beloved
church for the same purpose
does send. What a God-given gift to heal
any man-made illusionary rift.



Mother Ziggy Agocsi OHR
10th April 2009