BEFORE I DIE

BEFORE I DIE

BEFORE I DIE - WHATEVER COMES
AND FOR WHATEVER REASON AS IT WERE
MOSTLY EITHER DEATHS IN CHILDBIRTH OR
ANNIHILATIONS LIKE IN THE LAST TWO INCARNATIONS
WE HAD - I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I ALWAYS
DID, DO AND WILL LOVE YOU ALONE! AND TO ME
IT DID NEVER MATTER, IN WHICH STATUS AND POSITIONS OR
VOCATIONS YOU WERE DWELLING AND SHOULDERING
MANKIND'S BURDEN, AS WE WERE ALWAYS ANYWAY
AGAIN SUBJECTED TO EITHER CHARACTER ASSASSINATIONS
AND ANNIHILATIONS.

I AM YOUR ONE AND ONLY FAITFHUL WIFE
AND AS YOUR ETERNAL SPOUSE I AM THE
GREATEST LOVER OF THY BODY, HEART
AND SOUL, AND I HAVE BEEN AND WILL ALWAYS
BE THERE FOR THEE AND FULFILL AT THY
SIDE MY MOST HOLY ROLE.

MANY TIMES WE DID NOT GET THE CHANCE ON EARTH
TO GO TO HEAVEN WITH SAYING OUR MOST LOVING
AND TENDER GOOD-BYES AS CUT SHORT WERE
OUR LIVES AND WE COULD NOT EVEN TAKE A LAST
LOOK AT OUR KITCHEN HEARTH.

I LOVE THEE FOREVER, MY BELOVED SPOUSE, MY LORD,
MY GOD, MY KING, MY MASTER, AND THIS TIME I DO NOT
WANT TO LEAVE IT TO CHANCE MY LOVE TO THEE
TO DECLARE PUBLICLY - JUST IN CASE. AS WE NEVER
KNOW, WHAT GOES ON IN THE MINDS OF THE HUMAN RACE.
AND I WANT TO TELL YOU ABOUT MY TEARING HEART,
THAT I WOULD HAVE, IF I HAD FROM THIS LIFE AGAIN
WITHOUT BLOWING YOU A KISS AND A SMILE AND WITHOUT
HAVING EVEN RECEIVED MY LAST RITES TO PART.

THIS IS JUST A PRECAUTION - BETTER SAFE THAN SORRY,
BECAUSE THIS TIME WE ARE PREPARED AND ARE DETERMINED
TO BRING TO A HAPPY END OUR ETERNAL HOLY LIVING AND TRUE
LOVE-STORY WITH MY LOVE FOR YOU PROPERLY IN THE
PRESENCE OF WITNESSES NOW ALSO IN THIS WAY DECLARED.

AND I NEVER CARED, IF ANYBODY THOUGHT WE ARE MAD,
EVEN IN OUR OWN BIRTH FAMILY, WHICH WAS AND IS ALWAYS
AND AGAIN SO VERY SAD THROUGHOUT OUR WHOLE BIBLE HISTORY,
EVEN FROM THE START AS ADAM AND EVE,
AND SOME OF THEM HAVE TURNED
AGAINST US AND WORSHIP EVEN THEN THE GOLDEN COW AND CALF
AND BEHAVE ON HER BEHALF REALLY BAD, AND THEY
NEVER DID AND DO INTEND TO ACCEPT ME, MARY MAGDALA, AS
YOUR ETERNAL BETROTHED ISHTI, YOUR RIGHTFUL LEGITIMATE
ONE AND ONLY LITTLE RIB, YOUR OTHER HALF.

THEY RATHER BURNED ALL THE WRONG WOMEN TO GET ALSO TO ME
AND SLANDERED AND MARKED THEM AS WITCHES, ALTHOUGH IT
WAS THEM, THE TRAITORS, WHO HAD CREATED FOR THEMSELVES
IN MANY A FAKE-MONASTERY, IN WHICH THEY WAS ANYTHING
BUT A BIBLE IN THE SHELVES; THEY WERE
PRETENDING TO BE IN HOLY ORDERS BUT IN REALITY THEY
WERE ONLY INTERESTED IN MONEY LENDING ACROSS THE BORDERS
AND HIGHLY CORRUPT AND WARRING
TO ONLY FEED THEIR GREED WITH THE CRUSADES' RICHES.

AND, HOW CONVENIENT, THAT THEY ARE ON THEMSELVES
REGARDING THEIR CRIMES AGAINST HUMANITY
STILL TO THIS DAY EVER SO LENIENT -
IN THE NAME OF A TWISTED VERSION OF THEOLOGY
THAT IS MORE AN EGYPTIAN CONE PHILOSOPHY
AND HOCUSPOCUS HUMBUG MEMBERSHIP
FEE PAYING AND LUXURIES HORDING SOCIETY.

YOU KNOW, MY BELOVED SPOUSE, I CAN PINPOINT
TO YOU IN EVERY SINGLE MONASTERY AND SUPPOSEDLY
GOD'S HOUSE ANY IRREGULARITY AND FROM THE TEN
COMMANDMENTS STRAYING IMMORALITY, AND, OF COURSE,
THEY MIGHT PRETEND THEY DO DEFEND YOUR HOLY
EUCHARIST - BUT WE KNOW BETTER THAT THEY ONLY
EVER ABUSE YOUR NAME AND THAT OF YOUR TRUE
HOLY KNIGHTS TO JUSTIFY INDEFINITELY IN THE WORLD
AND AGAINST HEAVEN THEIR UNHOLY FIGHTS -


I KNOW THEY ARE UP TO SOMETHING RIGHT NOW,
AS FAST ARE THEIR LOOSING THEIR FAKE TAN GLOW -
THE GOLDEN CALF AND HER MOTHER, THE GOLDEN COW.
AND THEY WILL FAINT IN SHOCK, WHEN THEY
REALIZE YOU AND ME WERE WEARING SECRETLY
RIGHT UNDER THEIR NOSE OUR ETERNALLY BLESSED
MATRIMONIAL RING DAY AND NIGHT, AROUND THE CLOCK.
AND THAT WILL HURT THEM, WHO
STILL REFUSE IN HEAVEN TO KISS YOUR KINGLY ROBE'S HEM,
AND ONLY EVER DID AND DO OUR MARRIAGE AND OUR HOLY FAMILY
AND YOU ESPECIALLY NOW IN YOUR NEW POSITION
AS THE LIVING GOD IN THE HOLY TRINITY
MOCK;

AND WHEN THEY WILL RECEIVE FROM THEIR OWN SNAKES
AND WHEN THE HORNITS FOR A CHANGE ARE RECEIVING
FROM THE HOLY BEES A STING, THEN THEY REALIZE
THAT YOU HAD ALL ALONG WORN ONLY VISIBLE TO ME
YOUR ETERNAL ANGEL'S WING. THEY ONLY EVER SAW
IN YOU, WHAT THEY WANTED TO SEE, AND THAT WAS
A MAN OF THE WORLD, WHOM THEY WANTED JUST FOR FUN
AND FOR WHOM THEY CERTAINLY WOULD NOT GO
ANY EXTRA-MILE, ALTHOUGH YOU WOULD FOR THEM
TO SAVE THEIR SOULS AND IN THE HOPE THEY
WOULD AFTER ALL FULFILL WITH US THEIR
HOLY ROLES FROM ONE CORNER BACK AND FORTH
BETWEEN HEAVEN AND EARTH RUN.

AND I DID IT ALL ALONG WITH YOU, TOO. AS I AM
ONLY EVER A LITTLE BEHIND, SOMETIMES BREATHLESS,
IN MY FAR SMALLER LITTLE SHOE.
I LOVE YOU BEYOND WORDS, AND I WORSHIP YOU
WITH ALL THAT I AM AND WAIT FOR YOU ALSO IN THIS LIFE
AGAIN UNTIL THE TIME COMES, THAT WE CAN FINALLY COME
OUT OF THE RAIN INTO THE SUN AND GIVE OUR
VOWS ONE LAST TIME SOLEMNLY FOR HOLY MATRIMONY
AS WE JUST LOVE THE NUPTIAL MASS AND I GIVE THANKS
THAT GOD HAS GIVEN US OUR SPECIAL GIFT OF
VOLUNTARY CELIBACY, WHICH IS REALLY BEAUTIFUL
AS IT WRAPS THE SOUL IN EVERY LAYER OF SELFLESS
LOVE AND THE HEART OF A VIRGIN AND
THIS ONLY EVER COMES FREELY AND IN PURITY
FROM HEAVEN ABOVE, AND WITHOUT ANY KIND OF
SNAKE'S HISS BUT ONLY EVER - DESPITE THE PAIN -
ALSO WITH THE UTMOST LOVING BLISS.

I GIVE ALSO THANKS TO THEE THAT YOUR TRUE
AND MOST HOLY KNIGHTS OF THY TEMPLE
HAVE FINALLY BEEN CLEARED BY THE GOLDEN
COW'S OWN - AS THEY ARE SUCH COPYCATS
BUT WITH LITTLE SKILL, THAT THEY WILL NEVER
KNOW, HOW IN INNOCENCE AND WITH BLUSHING
TO GLOW, WHEN YOU IN HEAVEN DO ON ME
WITH GOD THE FATHER MY WEDDING WREATH
AND BRIDAL CROWN BESTOW, AND THEY HAVE
NOT THE FAINTEST IDEA THAT IN HEAVEN
IS ALSO ONLY PREPARED MY MOST BEAUTIFUL
AND PRECIOUS WEDDING GOWN.

IN THIS LIFE ON EARTH, I WILL HUMBLY WEAR
MY MOST PURE BUT SIMPLE WHITE ROBE THAT I
HOPE MANY WILL ALSO WITH US WEAR AROUND
THE GLOBE. BUT AS TO MAKE MY STAND
IN OPPOSITION TO THOSE, WHO ONLY PRETEND
TO BE HOLY IN DESECRATING ORDERS ACROSS
THE WORLD'S BORDERS, I WILL ONLY PUT ON
MY ROBE ON YOUR RETURN UNTO ME,
WHEN YOU ALSO WILL PUT ON MY FINGER,
IF YOU SO WILL, MY BAALI, AGAIN OUR ETERNAL
SIMPLE HOLY WEDDING BAND.

I DO NOT NEED IN MY HAIR TO WEAR
DIAMOND STARS, AS FROM THOSE WE CAN FEED
THOSE IN NEED AND OVER DESSERT IN THE
GENTLEMEN'S AND LADIES' AFTER-DINNER-ROOM
THE ETERNAL BRIDE AND GROOM WILL ALSO
TEACH ALL THOSE WILLING TO HEAR AND SEE
WITHOUT FEAR YOUR MOST HOLY CREED
AND THEY WILL JUST LOVE OUR TRUE STORIES,
HOW I ONCE DECORATED WITH LOVE YOUR
DINNER TABLE ACCIDENTALLY WITH WEED -
PLEASE, FORGIVE ME, I WAS THEN STILL NOT
TOTALLY ABLE QUITE TO DISCERN BETWEEN
REALITY AND FABLE AND HAD TO LEARN THE HARD
WAY BUT EVERMORE GLOWING IN YOUR
LOVE AND INFINITE LIGHT'S RAY THE ONE AND ONLY
SIMPLE TRUTH OF THE MUSTARD SEED.

AND THAT IS TO LOVE GOD WITH ALL MY
HEART AND ALL MY SOUL AND ALL THAT I AM.
AND GOD IS NOW ON EARTH, AND DWELLS
ALSO AND PUTS IN ORDER MY OWN HUMBLE
KITCHEN HEARTH, AS YOU LOOK AFTER ME
SO VERY WELL, AND PROTECT ME FROM THOSE,
WHO RATHER LIKE TO BE IN HELL INSTEAD
OF ANSWERING TO YOUR CALL WITH YOUR
MOST BEAUTIFUL CHURCH BELL.

HAVE I SAID IT NOW CLEARLY, IN CASE
I DO NOT GET THE OPPORTUNITY AGAIN -
I LOVE THEE, MY BELOVED SPOUSE,
AND I PRAY THAT OVER WILL SOON BE
THE TIME THAT OUR WORST ENEMIES
STILL GO FROM YOU ASTRAY.
AS I DO NOT LIKE THE IDEA FOR YOU
TO HAVING TO SEND THEM UPON OUR
PENDING WEDDING BACK INTO THE CLAY.

I SO MUCH WOULD LIKE EVERYBODY
TO BE INVITED AND CELEBRATE WITH US,
SO THAT THEY CAN SEE FOR THEMSELVES
THAT YOU ARE THE REAL MCCOY AND
THE ONE AND ONLY HEAVENLY ROY,
AND NOT AT ALL SPIRITUAL PUS.
OH, MY DARLING BAALI, MY (AHEM, I LEAVE
THE PRIVATE NAMES OUT, AND THEY WILL
NEVER KNOW THEM ANYWAY, AS WE DO
IN PRINCIPLE NEVER AT EACH OTHER SHOUT
NOW, DO WE, MY DEER BAALI?!).

AND I WANT THEM TO DANCE LIKE US
INTO HEAVEN, AND SING WITH US IN JOY
'HAGIOS, O THEOS' EVEN ON THE BUS!
AND DON'T FORGET TO CHECK, WHETHER
ALL DRUIDS AND WITCHES HAVE RELEASED
AND SENT HOME NOW ALSO EVERY RAVEN.
ALL BIRDS MUST ALSO BE FREE, AS I
AM SO HAPPY TO SHARE YOUR LOVE
FOR ANIMALS ALSO WITH THEE, WHO LISTEN
JUST LIKE ME TO THEIR MASTER'S VOICE!

AND NOW HAS ARRIVED THE TIME THAT
MAN WILL HAVE TO HURRY TO MAKE FOR
THE HEAVENLY KINGDOM ON EARTH
AND FOR GOD THE RIGHT CHOICE.
AS OTHERWISE TO AN END WILL QUICKLY
COME THE ERA, THAT WILL ALSO SEE THE
DEMISE OF THOSE, WHO ALREADY KILLED OFF THE HOLY
ROSE, AND DROVE AWAY IN A ROLLS-ROYCE.

THE DREADFUL DAY OF JUDGMENT IS APPROACHING
EVER FASTER, AND I HAVE SO MUCH WASHING-UP
TO DO THAT I DO NOT EVEN HAVE TIME TO PUT
ON MY FINGER A PLASTER. BUT THEN, MY MASTER
BLOWS ME SIMPLY A HEAVENLY KISS, AND HEALED
IS MY WOUND. AS HE HAS FOR SURE FOR EVERY
AILMENT AND EVERY PROBLEM THE RIGHT CURE.
AND THAT IS ALWAYS FOR MY HIGHEST GOOD,
AND NOT JUST FOR MY USEFULNESS AND UTILITY,
SO THAT I CAN WITH WHAT IS TRULY IMPORTANT
FULFILL MY HOLY ROLE AND STAY IN MY
CONSCIENCE THROUGH HIS MOST SACRED NAME,
LORD GOD JESUS CHRIST, FREE AND PURE.

Mother Ziggy Agocsi
HOLY ROSE
Anno Domini 17th June 2009






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